lilmstrouble: jclaudette: (via loveyourchaos)
too much anger and fear - fear of the future and of failure. too many things are at stake. i’m scared and tired and i don’t know what’s going to happen anymore.
there are days i wish i just did not wake up.
there are days you wake up feeling like THE SHIT, then other days you wake up just feeling like shit.
woot.
This is how it works.
You’re young until you’re not.
You love until you don’t.
You try until you can’t.
You laugh until you cry and you cry until you laugh.
and everyone must breathe until their dying breath.
Oh this is how it works.
You peer inside yourself,
you take the things you like and you try to love the things you took.
You take that you love you made and stick it into some-someone else’s heart, pumping someone else’s blood.
and walking arm in arm, hope it don’t get harmed
but even if it does, you’ll just do it all again.
I come back to Tumblr and I feel awesome.
Thank you :)
1. my grandma
who is awesome, and has battled cancer for the last 17 years. with her broken fingers and hair fall from chemo, the many operations that she’s been through.and her wish for me to be a doctor.
2. my friend
who didn’t make it to see it through to the end. i miss you everyday bo.
3. jo
who won’t study if i don’t study
4. otherwise i won’t get to work. and i’ll be stuck in studying hell.
5. money
get enough money, get out of this place forever.
i can do this. i just need to put my mind to it. and stop getting distracted.